"Heaven has been away too long"

Is a verse from a song that I've listened to many times, but went without notice until now. After we've been hurt by someone we become so guarded. Determined never to feel that pain again we begin to build walls to keep out all the bad, but in doing so we also keep out all the good too. We engulf ourselves with work, kids or school to distract us from our unending desire. It works and soon begin to forget.......... You Forget the wonderful things that being inlove brings, the joy and excitement of hearing her voice, the way your heart race at the sight of her, being filled with so many emotions that it confuses you, being caught in a moment that you hope will never end, finding it hard to breath when she is close to u, struggling but unable to find the words to accurately describe what she's done to you. You dont even know what was done to you, all you know is that you like it, and suddenly everything falls into place . Hard to believe but we do forget and we go along with our lives unaware and blind...................................... Until someone comes along and reminds us and you realize how long heaven has been away and u regret all those wasted moments. special times that could have been spent with someone special.Wasted. All I'm saying is its alright to protect yourself, just dont block out the good things. "You have to take the bad with the good." With love theres always a gamble but its worth it.

Too much suffering

U never understand the destruction or feel the pain of a natural disaster until it hits home. Although I'm not Hatian, alot of my close friends are and I bare witness to what they're going through. Not knowing if their loved ones are alive or dead and just being powerless to do anything. I cant even watch the news or open a news paper without being moved to tears by the images that I see. The yet so far is a father crying holding a dead child. This image has haunted me for days now. Everytime I look at my kids I feel like crying. I cant begin to imagine what Haitians here are going through. American, Haitian, Jamaican, we are all black and when one people cry we all should cry, when one people mourn we all should mourn and one is down we all should join togeather and help them back up.......... Do what u can, nothing is to small.

Where the Fukc have u been?????????

Is the question most of u have been asking. Sorry for being away so long, I know how much ya'll love reading about my fascinating life and my views on relationships............... Especially the ladies. Well first off let me say that I survived the holidays. Barely, but its alllll good coz my lil man got everything he wanted and me and the fam spent some well over due qulity time togeather. Unfortunately tho some fool ran a red light and crashed into my parked car. Let me say me say this, if u wanna see a grown man cry jus fuck his car up........... but I guess ya'll women already kno that :/ I was in a state of shock, then denial and I jus broke down. I swear another man had to come over and comfort me. Not on no gay shit tho!!!!! but he understood *sigh* thanks Benny the tow truck driver.
So now I'm taking public transportation and I actually like it. Very entertaining. If ur a writer u have to take public transportation, with the shit u witness u can write ten books. From a dope fiend bugging the fuck out, to people preaching......... I mean Wow! I definately like the experience tho.
As far as writing tho, still on it. I just finished revising my first book "Touch" scheduled to be released in March. I also have enough material for a second book, in which I trying to put out in June. Other than that I'm cool, living life to the fullest. Dont worry I aint going no where, Here to stay baby. dueces