Whats worse than being alone and lonely?????

Is having someone right next to you and still feeling lonely. Alot of people are in relationships that aren't making them happy or even satisfying their basic human needs. For whatever reason they remain, whether its for the kids, financial or just out of fear of not finding someone else, they stay. What they dont realize is that they're not just wasting time, but they're also wasting they're love, they're affection, and most importantly special moments that could be spent with someone who really appreciates them. Someone who notices when they're happy and comforts them when they're sad, someone who kisses them for no reason and pulls them close when a special song comes on, someone who holds their hand on the way home from a late night date, someone who makes love to them and not just have sex........ and yes there is a difference....... a big one. Someone who who you cant wait to see instead of someone you hope wont be home when you get there and when they do get home you hope that your asleep by then. You think that you'll be losing by leaving, but you'll be losing alot more by staying.

Michael Vick VS Chris Brown

Michael Vick went to prison for his crimes while Chris Brown got probation.............Am I the only one who thinks that there's something seriously fucked up about this????? For those who are not familiar with Vick, he's a football player who was caught having organized dogfights at his house. For his crime he served 23 months in prison. While Chris Brown who beats up on his girlfriend gets absolutely no time in prison. On top of that people are still angry at Michael Vick while everyone is willing to over look his crime. I'm not taking up for Vick or saying what he did was right. I'm against cruelty against animals especially dogfighting, but he paid for his crime. Two years in prison is no walk in the park. Brown only got probation. What message does this send to society??????? That we value the saftey of dogs more than black women. That a crime against a dog is worse than a crime against a black woman.......... On another note I see R. Kelly is making a come back. Another one who violated a young black female who got off without any punishment for his crime. But I how can I be mad at them when I see black woman screaming for him and showing him and Brown so much love. Pumping their music and dancing to it "thats my jam girl" I myself will never by another R. Kelly album and I could careless about what his bitchass is up to. Chris Brown, we all make mistakes, but also gotta pay for them too brother. Food for thought...............

Don't make me over

There's a song titled "Dont make me over" by Sybil, if you dont know it check it out. Its about a woman whose asking her man not to change her now that she's in love with him. This is a problem that happens to both male and female way too often. A woman meets a man and after he commits to her, she wants to "fix him up" despite the man feeling comfortable with himself. She wants to change how dresses, how he talks, his friends and his job. NOT COOL LADIES!!!!!!!
Women faces this problem also, a man meets a woman whose a little overweight and after a few months of having sex with her, he decides that he wants her to lose wieght. I believe that if you meet a person a certain way then you should not try to change them. If they weren't to your satisfation when you met them then you should have left them alone and found someone who fits the image that your looking for. Its different when your trying to introduce someone to new things, but when your trying to make over your mate there is going to be problems. The changes your suggesting can be harmful to a person's selfesteem. Your basically telling them that something is wrong with them and your not happy with them. Just food for thought people......

Women are not that complicated

Men are always bitching and complaining about how they dont understand women. How they're so complicated. If a man really wants to understand a woman all he has to do is pay attention to her. Pay attention to what amuses her, pay attention to what makes her go "Awwww", pay attention to what makes her angry, pay attention to what makes her cry and Most importantly and this is key to unlocking the secrets to any woman, Listen!!!!!! Women are constantly telling us what they need, but men are so self centered and selfish that we dont hear her. All we hear is words coming from her mouth, but we never take time to listen, interpret, and remember what she says. All a man has to do is put his needs to the side for 20 minutes every day, humble himself, give his woman a call and listen. His life would be so much easier.

When You smile I smile

It takes alot more love and strength to let go than to keep holding on. Time and time angain when you breaking up with someone they always talk about how much they love you and thats why they keep calling you and trying to win you back, but I feel like if you really love someone and if your not making them happy you should let them go. You should find happiness in knowing that they found someone to bring them the joy that you couldn't. I believe that when you truely love someone whatever they feel you feel. If they smile then you smile, If they cry then you should wanna cry too. I personal have had to let someone go who I really care about and watch her go off with another man and watch her smile because of him, but even tho it hurt like hell I smiled right along with her. Because I knew that she was truely happy and it didn't matter that I wasn't the the reason. All that mattered was that she was smiling.

Too many games

Remember when you were little and if you liked someone all you had to do was tell them and if they liked you back it would be a done deal. It was so simple, so pure. There were no hidden agendas, no games being played, no lies being told, no deception. It was just love in its purest form. Now as adults things are so different. Men lie about everything and women are always playing games. Men are always trying to get into the women's pants and women are always trying to get into the men's wallets. Just once I'd like to walk up to a woman I like and say "Hi, I think your very pretty and I like you." And then she would replye "I like you too. Would like to join me." But it will never happen, some how women look at you crazy if you say how you really feel without the games. They'd rather hear "Whats up beautiful, why are you sitting here all by yourself." So they can replye "How you know I'm by myself? You shouldn't assume things." And the games go on and on and on. Why?????????????

Being a father is a gift from God delivered through a woman

On August 20, 2005 my son was born and it was also the day a second chance was given and my life began. I was there when he enetered the world, watched him take his first breath and looked into his making a promise that I would always be there for him. Four years later I'm still here, I'm not perfect and I'm still making mistakes but I'm still here. Enjoying every minute of every hour with him. No matter how bad the world beats up on me, when his little arms wrap around my neck it all disappears. I can honestly say that I've never known a love like this before. This is a gift that could only have came from God above, delivered through a woman and I'm grateful to both.

pussy will get u killed faster than drugs or money

When I was 16 my older brother told me that pussy would get you killed faster than drugs or money and its been the best advise I've ever gotten. You hear about it all the time a guy in a club and he tries to hola at another man's lady, or guy is sleeping with someone's wife/girlfriend/babymama and he gets got. And finally the crazy ex who cant accept certain things and takes his frustration out on the new man with his 9.
Although a man is responsible for his own actions and he must face the consequences for them, women are partly to blame and in some situations all to blame. In the club a woman will be with her man and still be checking out other guys and some might even be flirting on the low. Sending the wrong signal to another man. Your basically leting the other guy know that your man is a chump and its alright to disrespect him and thats when shit gets ugly. Some women have boyfriends and dont let the guy on the side know and have the guy coming to pick her up from her house like everything is cool. Next thing you know bad timing and they meet up and shit gets ugly. Some women dont want to cut off their ex completely. They might break up with the ex but still be talking to them on the phone or meeting up them to have sex. Never really letting him go on his way. This makes the ex think that he is still apart of your life and he wont accept the fact that your not his girl when you do this. At the same your bring the new man around and just throwing it in his face. Again shit is gonna get ugly when the ex cant take it anymore. Ladies I'm not saying that your responsible for men and their egos getting out of controle and someone dying but you can help prevent it. Certain situations can be avoided if you do your part.

On Saturday when I went to the beach I noticed something that I couldn't get out of my head. There was this overweight guy not wearing shirt proudly parading his gut around with no problems. Then I noticed that this very attractive young with just a little baby fat was wearing a wrap over her bathing suite. It was a trend that observed through out the day. These guys who should really be ashamed of their bodies and how they let themselves go were comfortable and content with the way they look. While women who gave birth, who actually brought life into the world were ashamed of their streatchmarks that they earned during their pregnancey. So ladies please be proud of your bodies and dont hide it. Wear that two piece and make love with the lights on cause any real man will appreciate it and love the strength and wonder behind its marks and wrinkles.

Act like a lady think like a man- waste of money

Every where I go woman are talking about Steve Harvey's book and how its a life changer. Saying they're up on the games men play now. Well ladies I have news for you, it was a waste of money. I going to do for you in one sentence what Steve Harvey took 200 pages to do. If you wanted to understand men and be a sucka, all you have to do is TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS!!!!!!
Thats it, nothing more to it. Your woman's intuition is more powerful than you think. If your gut instincts is telling you not to fuck with a man, listen to it. If you your intuition is telling that your man is cheating, chances are he is. When women talk to me about an ex that did them dirty, the always say the same thing. "I had a feeling........" Thats exactly what they say Everytime.
You want to know what I figured out about women........They dont listen, not even to themselves. Thats why I tell guys who think that Steve Harvey fuckd up their game by giving out out our secrets not to worry because it doesn't make a difference. Women are always going to follow their emotions. You can tell a woman that there's a tiger waiting around the corner to jump on her and she'll continue to walk in that direction. SMH. I just dont understand, but Steve did he made a killing off ya'll.

Behind the smile

I always have a smile on my face and I'm always joking. This is the Romeish people know. This the Romeish people like to be around. This the Romeish they love. But I wonder if they knew who I really was would they still love me. If they knew that I'd rather be crying than smiling, that there's nothing funny about my life, that after years my scars still hurt. Would they still wanna be around me. If I told them about my suicidal thoughts and and the voilence that I try to restrain, would they still think I was such a wonderful guy. I am who I am, I hide nothing when I write and for those who read this and still choose to ride with me.... Thank u

Dreams never die, you just give up

March of 2007 I began my writing career. At the time all I had was a black and white notebook and a head full of ideas and stories. Two years later I'm still struggling. Some people tell me I'm wasting my time and I should just give it up, but I cant. They say your book didn't sell and you wont make it, but I refuse to listen. I stay focused and keep pushing forward, because ten years from now I dont want to be sitting around wondering what if??? Whether I succeed or fail at least I'll know I gave it all I had and I can sit back and have no regrets. Keep chasing your dreams people and dont let no one discourage.

I had wrote a short story titled "A Fairy Tale" in which I posted in my notes on FaceBooks. Although its not the most popular of my stories, it means the most to me. Mainly because it depicts my own life and my struggle the most. All my work has a piece of me in it, but this one does a really good job of showing how I lost myself to the streets.
This story within a story speaks of a knight who sets out on a journey to slay a dragon and gets lost in the dark forest. Like wise the main character experiences the same thing and so did I with the dark forest representing the streets. On my right inner forearm there are three Chinese symbols tattooed there. They read Rightousness, Nobility and Courage. The three things that means the most to me. Like a knight has a code, this was mine, but over years of seeing the cold and heartless behavior of people in the streets, I started to become like them and lose myself. In the end however the Knight did find his way out of the dark forest and thankfully so did I. If you haven't checked it out yet, please do.

God answers prayers! Maybe not in the way you specified but he does answer them. I once prayed for a new life, as impossible as it may sound thats what I wanted. From start my life has been fucked up and I just wanted another chance, another life. God heard me and on August 20, 2005 he gave me that second chance, he gave me that new life. He gave it to me with the birth of my son and with his birthday approaching, I'm not only gonna celebrate his life but also the beginning of my new one.....As his father.

Today I wrote a new poem, although poetry isn't my strong point, its definately my fav. It allows me to express my feelings without actually saying how I feel and for anyone who is guarded you know how important that is. The newest poem titled "Justified" is about trying to get over a past love and how difficult it can be. To the point where you begin to lie to yourself and fool yourself into thinking that they meant nothing to you. We all been there and there are some thats still in denial right now.
The second poem I posted on FaceBook was "Defenseless" and its basically about how I got my heartbroken and I built this wall around it so that I would never get hurt again. I would fight my feelings so that I wouldn't fall in love with a woman I'm seeing. Until I met one special one that I couldn't fight what I was feeling for her so I gave up and just fell for her. I encourage everyone to write a poem of some sort. Its a really good way of getting some ish off your chest.

It takes more strength to let go than to keep holding on

Its been a month since my brother past away and I'm finally beginning to come to terms and accept it. I occupy my time with work and people, never really taking time to think and reflect on it. Yesterday for the first time I actually looked at his picture and really thought about him. I both smiled and cried, sorrow and joy both filled me at the same time.The memories came flooding back and I realized that they'er all I have left now............ But its all right. I must let go so that I can move on.
To anyone who reads this blog, cherish the people in your life because you dont know when they might have to go.

I have spent years trying to define something that can not be defined, out of hopes that I may find an answer to a question that would unbreak my heart. I have read countless books and have spoken to numerous people of various ages and no has been able to give me an exact precise definition. What is Love?????????? How can I recognize it when I encounter it if I don't know what it is. This question has haunted and tormented since the day she walked out of my life. I took her for granted and toyed with her emotions because I thought she could be replace like the others, but I was wrong. I thought that I'd forget about her in a week, but here I am still thinking about her. Wondering if it was love. Is that the reason why I am unable to forget about her or why these feelings that I have for her still remains? I dont know. I'm begining to think that I'm not suppose to know either. Maybe for the first time in my life I should trust my heart and not my mind................